I haven’t posted in weeks.

Why? Because I’ve been too ashamed of myself to write to you.

I’ve been struggling with my weight loss plan for weeks – months even – and have been constantly gaining and losing the same few pounds.

Its been so depressing to me and as a result of this disapointment, I’ve binged on junk food several times in the past few weeks.

I’m talking nachos, soda, chocolate, fried chicken and pizza binges – and yes, all in one siting.

And of course the binging only made me feel worse about myself.

While this all was going on I literally was too afraid to blog.  I was too embarrassed and ashamed of my actions to post it for all the world to see.

And then an obvious light went off in my head.

This is exactly the kind of situation that I should be blogging about.  What’s the point in a weight loss blog if I don’t share the most challenging aspects of losing weight?

The emotions and fears that I’ve been experiencing the past few weeks are the exact reasons why so many people give up.

I owe it to you and to myself to document how I cope and get through these insanely hard times.  If I can learn to get through these moments then so can you.

So I am back.  Imperfections and all.